In her publish, she started by sharing an incident that Jimin prompted, nonetheless she pinned all of the blame on herself. Following that case, even her company blamed her, and never Jimin.
Ah proper, your followers name me the perpetrator. Just as a result of I’m the sufferer, does that imply I’ve to maintain my mouth shut? You college violence, including up elementary, center, and highschool, lasted for 9 years. You guys haven’t been crushed up like this, so that you’re simply sick and bored with my infinite posts, you don’t suppose I’m a human, and also you simply resent me. There are your followers who’re similar to you, and I simply cried since I believed I used to be a nuisance. Since I believed I did one thing flawed, I cried, and I believed it was okay because it’s what different folks thought. Later, my dad discovered me and cried quite a bit with me. Because of you, how did I really feel? I had by no means seen my dad cry earlier than in my life.
The hairline incident that you simply’re interested in? That was Shin Jimin too. You know that I have already got expertise with hair loss as a result of stress. When I used to be a trainee, you instructed me to shave off all of my child hairs. I don’t know why I needed to, however my hairs had been gone and my brow seemed greater after which I needed to observe instantly. That night time was additionally after we had a really early schedule and it occurs that the identical night time, my sleep treatment wasn’t working. I took extra treatment, and as time handed, I couldn’t see in entrance of me, I used to be so dizzy.
I didn’t even suppose this was an emergency state of affairs, I simply thought it was my fault. As quickly as I known as her to let her know what occurred, she pointed the blame at me, I clearly knew what occurred. I cried and went again to the dorm and that night time, I took a whole bunch of sleeping capsules. Of course I’d get in bother, however I felt like I simply actually wished to finish it, all the struggling and bullying over 10 years.
I don’t care that everybody was bullied for 10 years. With the hairline incident, everybody together with the company workers put the blame on me. They mentioned it was my mistake, that my luck was dangerous, I wanted to replicate, to confess it. But the individual that did this to me was [Jimin], why did nobody within the company take heed to me? I actually wished to resume my contract to comply with my dream, so I hid this tight to my chest.
— Kwon Mina
Kwon Mina additionally shared how through the time she thought-about re-signing with FNC Entertainment, the opposite AOA members additionally suffered as a result of Jimin’s actions, they usually even wished Jimin faraway from the group.
When I used to be 26, the AOA members and I thought of whether or not we must always renew our contracts due to that one particular person. In the top, I spit out the truth that they had been standing by, being bystanders to what was taking place. I requested why all of them didn’t wish to curse out Shin Jimin for my sake?
Kim Chanmi wished to proceed the group with me, and have Jimin eliminated, she would curse at everybody. Kim Seolhyun additionally thought she was too bossy. Yuna additionally had a really troublesome time due to her, so I used to be in a position to sympathize along with her. Hyejeong was watching my struggling the closest.
Anyways, most individuals requested me why I stop following my dream the best way I did once I didn’t do something flawed. If it’s too laborious mentally, you’re simply instructed to consider your self, however I used to be consuming and fascinated by the rationale why she hates me.
I didn’t anticipate it, however everybody handled me like they had been on my facet. But I didn’t know who was doing it for enterprise causes and who was sincerely on my facet. But the individuals who clearly noticed me endure requested me if she sincerely apologized. If you listened to Shin Jimin’s voice, you’ll know if she was honest or not. I didn’t know what she would do, so I went. And if even only one particular person didn’t know that crew chief Yunho or Hyerim would include me, I wouldn’t have mentioned something. I don’t keep in mind if I mentioned the best factor. Did anybody open up? If my buddy goes to apologize to me, I’ll arise straight and obtain it, so why can’t you keep in mind something?
— Kwon Mina
She continued by sharing extra occasions that occurred inside AOA ranging from her trainee days, that finally would lead her to not eager to stay any longer.
She didn’t know the way to deal with a youthful sister, so whether or not she would simply name me Mina, scold me, attempt to give me recommendation, or nag at me, everybody would cutely faux to be robust in entrance of her. When Jimin would depart with a trash expression on her face, I believed they had been on my facet, I believed they had been honest about that. Why did you give me these expectations? I didn’t understand it was all enterprise ultimately, and it should have been a distinction within the environments we grew up in. I didn’t like the place I got here from, I can’t giggle in entrance of an individual who swears at me since they aren’t on my facet.
It’s not as a result of I didn’t say something. The actions in opposition to me and the issues mentioned to me have left me with many wounds. Over time, the opposite AOA members bought upset as a result of they thought they had been those who harm me, however it’s not their fault.
Starting from once I was a trainee, to once I debuted, and to the center of my profession, I didn’t wish to die. My psychological well being was additionally positive, and I believed that if I attempted more durable, issues would get higher sooner or later. But then blood got here from by wrist, tears flowed from my eyes, and I broke down, destroyed. If Shin Jimin hadn’t bullied me for 10 years… In the meantime, I’d learn my KakaoTalk messages, and suppose ‘ah, this is also my fault, I gave myself this wound..’
At first, I’d reply that I used to be sorry. But there’s another person who did one thing flawed. It wasn’t me. I’m the one who listened to and noticed all the struggling. Even worse, I used to be the one who bought chewed up, however did you ever cease? Or did you ever converse a phrase about it? Nope.
I used to be additionally harm by everybody, particularly by the members who I used to be extra connected to, however fairly than being truly harm, it was only a totally different expertise than the folks from Busan that I hung out with. Their phrases had been fairly, however when I’m not round, what do they are saying? I wished to assist carry a special temper, so I’d all the time do gag jokes.
When Shin Jimin and Shin Hyejeong are within the group van, once I would get on, Shin Jimin would flip round and I’d be the goal. Sometimes I say one thing, however due to that, I’d get neurosis. I’d instantly take sleeping capsules and tranquilizers as quickly as I bought on the group automobile, I needed to as that was the one approach to endure it.
— Kwon Mina
She additionally apologized to her followers, stating that she doesn’t keep in mind a few of her performances as a result of all the treatment he was taking, then shared extra particulars about Jimin’s torment in the direction of her.
I’m actually sorry to the followers, however… I’d end a efficiency safely however there have been instances I don’t keep in mind the efficiency, or I’d make a mistake when speaking, or perhaps I used to be simply expressionless. When I made a mistake within the motion [for our choreography], I requested Yuna if she was okay, and apologized. Yuna mentioned it was okay, however Shin Jimin’s phrases had been simply an excessive amount of. I don’t keep in mind what she mentioned due to my medication, however she got here again and mentioned extra issues to me, telling me to not do this once more.
She instructed me to cease taking capsules, however Jimin, that is all due to you. The medication that I’m taking, I believed I used to be going to die of heartburn. Everything you do works out, and every little thing I strive doesn’t. When she would take sleeping capsules, she couldn’t keep in mind something however she severely cursed out her greatest buddy in entrance of the washer. From her perspective, she couldn’t assist it and the company thought the identical factor. Who do you suppose you’ll be able to curse out and stay on impartial phrases with?
— Kwon Mina
She completed her publish by calling out Jimin as soon as once more, this time for Jimin’s failure at being a frontrunner and her falsified apology on the funeral corridor following the passing of her father.
So I don’t actually know. It’s awkward. But I actually was apprehensive for you whenever you had been speaking about your private life in entrance of the washer, so I instructed you one thing. But you don’t keep in mind. Even should you hate me and are swearing at one other particular person, why are you even speaking about [me] like that? I’ve stored my mouth shut for a very long time since that occurred, however your cursing is simply one thing else. There was no curse you wouldn’t say.
You didn’t know the way to be a frontrunner. You had no sense of accountability. At the salon, on the dorm, whereas filming and it turns into troublesome, every little thing irritated you. During broadcasts the place you would need to see malicious feedback, you was a punk. You didn’t wish to go to music reveals since you’ll battle. The Jimin I noticed would say every little thing she wished to and do every little thing she wished to, having fun with herself and take out her anger on whoever was round.
I don’t know should you acknowledge it, however when your father handed away, I preferred your father quite a bit. I made up my thoughts to go to the funeral and also you mentioned you got here as much as me whereas crying to apologize. What the hell? I don’t keep in mind something. You didn’t say something. At that point, I went to consolation Jimin as a result of I’ve additionally [experienced my father passing away]. I stayed there for a very long time. Everyone was stunned to see me there. On that day, I went to your sister and he or she made certain I ate. She additionally made certain you ate somewhat bit. Your sister talked to me whereas in tears, after which I left. Even proper earlier than the contract renewal, you mentioned ‘I don’t suppose I’m that a lot of a foul individual that I’d say one thing like that?’
You denied what you probably did to me, and stared at me. You mentioned you don’t keep in mind what occurred earlier than the contract renewals. Was that earlier than or after I discovered the knife? It’s straightforward so that you can suppose that every little thing was solved on the funeral. But for me, even after 10 years of struggling, it took braveness to consolation your father with none malice, in contrast to what you probably did when my father handed away. We didn’t speak on the funeral. You had been crying and sorry? If you simply cry and apologize with out understanding what you probably did flawed, will issues simply work out? I did nothing flawed for 10 years however now that there are scars left on my physique, what’s the use if we meet now?
I actually wish to meet up, simply us two. I wish to see should you’re totally different, should you’ll apologize. If you’ll be able to’t apologize till you die, I gained’t name you a psychopath, I’ll simply know you’ve that sense of guilt in you. Jimin, due to you, I’ve had a really, very troublesome time. But I’m not going to surrender till I can meet you. I don’t wish to destroy you as my compensation. I simply wish to resolve among the injustice.
— Kwon Mina
Following her posts, Mina shared two photos of herself, sharing that she is extra relaxed now.
My thoughts is relaxed, the stress is gone, now I’m sleepy.
— Kwon Mina
I slept properly, however I should have fallen asleep on my brow.
— Kwon Mina